right now

I haven’t written in a while, so I’m going to just write some of my thoughts.

I’m not sure I remember the days when I was bored.  When I had more time than responsibilities.  It seems that as I’m getting older, the proportion of responsibilities/”should do’s” is starting to outnumber the free time I have.  I was thinking: what if I decided in my career that I would make sure that I had time every day to slow down.  That even though I bustle my bum while I’m working, I would recognize and feed the need for relaxation and refreshment.  I think about other countries where they run slower than us.  So what if they don’t get as much done in the day.  Maybe they enjoy it more?  So what if they take a nap every afternoon.  Maybe they enjoy the rest of the day more. 

I’m a worrier–which leads to stress, tiredness, and discontent.  And I tell myself (the truth I think) that worrying is a trust problem.  That if I really trusted God, what is there to worry about?  Much easier said than done for me my friends.

Thank God for springtime.  Thank God for my family (at home and here at PSU).  I hope to enjoy, not just endure the rest of this semester.  I need God’s strength to get me through.  God is giving me a picture of redemption, and it’s refreshing.